OH Sweet Heaven What Have I Gotten Myself Into?

When I started this it was with the highest of intentions. I was going to blog more, ideally weekly. I was going to put my name out there. I was going to make myself known so my book would get more attention when I finally did get it finished. I wanted to be well-known, if not famous. I wanted to entertain. I needed the therapy (more on that later...maybe).

Then, reality set in. Working full time. Taking care of the kids when I wasn't at the salt mines. Finding MAYBE an hour or two every other day to get any writing in on my book. Then, having good days and bad with that writing. And, a lot of backtracking. Trying to figure out how to actually write the thing, trying to figure out if it's supposed to be funnier than it was scary, and finding out that it might not be either. Amidst all that, the web site was left at the wayside.

I'm a person who almost constantly prioritizes my activities. I can't help it. My last job was at a hotel that offered convention services and I had to constantly prioritize my days there. And, I had to do it on the fly as more and more things came up throughout the shift. AV breakdowns during a meeting. Getting that coffee break out because it's running late. Missing an in-house meeting due to a quick turn. There was usually something that came up out of nowhere that took precedence over everything else. It became the norm, really. The habit followed my to my new job. Customer service first, then high end product had to be secured. Then, the big items out of the way and finally smaller things and things that needed cases. Basically, if you prioritize it right, you can accomplish anything. At work.

The habit sort of followed me home, but not exactly the way I would have preferred. Kids and wife first, always. I take care of their needs over my own. And if there is time left and I'm not exhausted and it isn't too late at night, I might be able to get in a few lines on the book. But, there seems to be so little time left for the website. I almost considered giving it up altogether. But, I thought about it for a while, and decided to keep it. For one thing, writing is therapy to me. I can work out through allegory whatever is bothering me. Plus, writing makes me feel like my life has some sort of meaning outside of my family and work. I think everyone needs that to have a feeling of self-worth, that one thing that is outside their "normal" world, no matter what it is (no judgments here). So, I decided to do whatever I could on the site, whenever I'm able. Thus this sorry little missive.

So, that's a bit of backstory on my lazy approach to webbing (I don't know if that's really a term or not...maybe it should be). You have an idea, however vague, as to why I am not more prolific. But, when school starts again, I should be able to do this more often, and hopefully be much more interesting, though that might be something of a stretch. Then, I'll have the computer more often. There won't be two kids taking turns playing Minecraft or Roblox (I know, trademarks) on it all day. I might even have time to actually plan what I'm going to write instead of this impromptu mish-mash. I'm not even going to go over this for errors other than those caught by spell-check. It's post, and away for me!

I hope your New Year is getting off to a fantastic start and that it keeps getting better and better. Remember, you're never alone. Remember there is a deity above that loves you. And, if you're atheist, remember that goodness does exist in the human heart.

Peace.